ANOTHER YEAR
Wow, it has been another year. Yesterday marked the anniversary of my son Eric's death. It has been 6 years now since he was killed and I still can't really accept it.
I know he is gone, I know he will not be back and I accept the responsibility of his death. I will carry that with me for ever.
I am not wallowing in self remorse nor am I seeking pity. I am just stating the fact and realizing it could have been different had I made a few other decisions than the ones I made.
I had my son in my grasp and was leading him the way he needed to go and then for very selfish reasons, (albeit unkowingly); I let go of him. I simply let go at the time when he needed me to hang on the hardest.
Self reflection and honesty is a very crappy thing!
"Eric, this is your dad.
Do you remember the life that you had?
Do you forgive me for letting you
Slip away?"
I know he is gone, I know he will not be back and I accept the responsibility of his death. I will carry that with me for ever.
I am not wallowing in self remorse nor am I seeking pity. I am just stating the fact and realizing it could have been different had I made a few other decisions than the ones I made.
I had my son in my grasp and was leading him the way he needed to go and then for very selfish reasons, (albeit unkowingly); I let go of him. I simply let go at the time when he needed me to hang on the hardest.
Self reflection and honesty is a very crappy thing!
"Eric, this is your dad.
Do you remember the life that you had?
Do you forgive me for letting you
Slip away?"
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